First of all: yes jenjen i AM alive. woooo expect mail soon birthday girl! :)
Now...
I would like to take this time to give recognition to my favorite person on this great wide earth:
Jason Fluckey.
today happened to be our 9 month, and in about 4 minutes it is his 19th birthday! back to back fun, thats what i would call it.
I have this problem, you see. Ever since I was a little kid, when something would go wrong or not go according to plan, I would get into a bad mood. It is really hard for me to just "snap out of it" when this happens, even if it was just something small. The only way it goes away is over time. Sometimes a few minutes, sometimes a couple hours. I am just the kind of person who likes things to go by schedule, and I have always had a problem when things go "wrong."
Tonight is an example. Okay, its a really bad example, but it illustrates the point that it doesnt take much to throw me off. Jay was going to pick me up at my dorm at 5:30 to go to dinner. I wanted to look really cute when he arrived, so i plugged in my straightener and curling iron and started picking out an outfit. 5 minutes later there was Jason, at my door. It was 5:30 already... i dont know how i wasted that half hour but i hadnt touched my hair yet, hadnt done my makeup, and hadnt picked out an outfit. I got really flustered because I had really wanted to look my best when he came. (Despite his "i would take you in sweatpants over any other girl dressed up" and "you look beautiful no matter what"... i was still sliding down into that stressed-out-things-didnt-go-according-to-plan mode. Bad news for everyone involved.
< here's the thing. nobody can get me OUT of these little moods. They don't happen often, but there has yet to be a time that I can just "snap" right out of it. >
so i throw on some eyeliner and a sweater and reluctantly trudge out the door, feeling like that mismatched couple where the guy is hott and the girl is a slob.
as we walked down the street, he began to prod at me to tell him why i wasnt in a good mood. I tried to explain how i get frustrated about these little things and i cant shake it off. I added how i was dissatisfied about my outfit because the sweatshirt i had over it totally didnt match...
at this point he proceeds to unzip the top sweatshirt and take it off of me, putting his big fleece on me instead. he starts putting his arm into the sleeve of my sweatshirt and goes "okay, we can trade then." Despite my oh-my-god-are-you-serious look, complete with rolling eyes, he proceeds to squeeze into my little zip-up hoodie and zip it up. I couldnt stay in a bad mood and i just started laughing. he made little smartass comments the whole walk there that just made everything all better.

(not actual photo of tonight... this is last week, with a different zip-up sweater!)
so here's to jay, the now 19-year-old who is the first and only person to break me out of my something-went-wrong moodiness!!!



I love you! :) |